Ask Me What It's Like To Have Myself So Figured Out

This is how it works.

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 16:46:11 GMT

I decided that I am going to turn my computer off for a week or two. I realized that i am attached to the interent and am on it way to much. I WAKE UP and go on the internet. I don't wait just enjoy life when I first wake up which is the best time to enjoy it. I go on AIM to see if Brandon is on or Candice. How lame is that? Then... I go on Myspace and see if I got comments. I think that was the breaking point. Going on myspace to see if I got comments. That is when you know that you are no longer a person... It was a terrible discovery. Then I check my email and then Facebook. I am attached to these websites just like everyone else who has them. That is terrible. So, I decided to just shut it off. For a week and if i don't get everything I want to get done done, I'll keep it off for an extra week. If you need to talk to me, call me like a normal person. If you don't have my number, ha! I need to find myself again because I really lost me. I lost Amanda to the internet! Fuck that is lame. WIth this week or two I decided I am going to write and draw and take pictures do homework of better quality. I am going to spend a lot more time in coffee houses which is sad, but if you want to come with me, call me. I want to go for walks because no one does that anymore, how sad. Life is sad with this internet thing. Damn.

I am just so annoyed with the direction my life has gone, that I want to scream. I sit around and listen to people complain about their relationships and ask me for advice. They ask ME. Let me tell you a little something about me... I have NO luck with guys at all. I would not come asking me for advice if I were you. Look at Brandon... Fuck that is all I have to say.

In baby news incase you livejournal hoes were wondering... I am 18 weeks today and I feel him move around a lot. I decided on the name Landon. I don't know a middle name, but Thomas is the last. Landon Thomas. How adorable. Whatever.

I am done, see you all in about two weeks. Good luck with everything.

- A

FRIENDS ONLY FUCKAS!

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 17:15:15 GMT

oh boy, i am just so bored.

i'm going to make my journal friends only again.

you bitches should leave me some love!

my thoughts on the day...

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 04:15:43 GMT

so... i was asked why i wanted to graduate high school today.

my reply, "To go to college!!"

eh... i guess that is true... but i really wanted to say...

"to get the fuck away from all the two-faced sluts, bitches, and fucking stupid people that i have met in high school. Don't get me wrong, high school has been good to me. I have met SOME good people, but not as many has horrible poeple. I did met brandon, the best person i know... but i have met more god aweful people. People who say that they are happy for you and love seeing you happy, but turn aroud and be bitches. I really really need to graduate. The stress is killing me and so is the drama. I hate it..."

I feel really bad for freshman.

what the fuck ever...

Sun, 04 Dec 2005 17:36:51 GMT

nobody reads these anymore...

One day I'll fail to breath, and all you'll have left is memories.

Wed, 23 Nov 2005 00:21:52 GMT

One year ago, today, we made this happen.

I ♥ you.

thank you for the best year of my whole 18 years.

to many many more.

-amanda

everything to keep me together is falling apart.

Tue, 15 Nov 2005 23:23:28 GMT

I fucking quit.
I'm so done.
nothing i do is fucking right.
FUCK!
i really hate myself right now.
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Fri, 04 Nov 2005 02:10:52 GMT

so, brandon and i spent all night playing with clay.
it was really really fun.
i made a pot kinda thing.
it was ugly, so i gave it to brandon.
perfect evening?
i think so.
♥

I don't wanna let you down

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 03:06:16 GMT

Marching band is sorta over, I guess.

God, I'm glad it's over.

IloveBPM!

672

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 04:26:02 GMT

So... I got my OWN computer!! Whoo hoo!! I'm so excited!!

Uh... Brandon and I went to see SAW 2. It was oooooook I guess. Brandon really liked it so that's cool. Um.. I just wanted to let everyone know that I have my own computer!!

I'm just WAY excited.

=)!!!!!

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 16:43:01 GMT

My 18th birthday was the best ever!!! Brando took me to see the Dresden Dolls. It was sooo great! We were like... SO CLOSE it was retarted. We were in the FRONT... very fucking front. The other bands, whos name i can not spell were amazing!! Like... BESt FUCKING BIRTHDAY EVER!!!!

I love Brandon.

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 20:22:38 GMT

=)
bitch!

Love makes the world go 'round.

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 02:54:48 GMT

I'm just too busy for all of this!!
School is really really busy.
Auditions were today, GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!
Powderpuff is coming up soon. I'm WAY excited.
Blah, I need to sleep because I have marching band in the morning.
=/
too busy!!
I love that boy of mine though!!
<3

I love brandon!!

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 16:46:27 GMT

i love my 4th hour...
very much.
<3

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 02:30:07 GMT

it's perfect.
thanks for asking.
<3

hell yeah, son.

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 01:46:48 GMT

I am offically ready for school to start. bring it on, bitch.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 16:25:25 GMT

best thing ever...

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 17:35:05 GMT

oh baby.

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 10:22:25 GMT

last band camp EVER!!!!!

I wanna be the shower in the morning that wakes you up and makes you clean.

Sun, 14 Aug 2005 16:41:55 GMT

I wanna update this silly thing.

So, I started knitting. I'm going to nit a blanket I decided. I hope it turns out well. Um... I went shopping for band camp. Whoo-hoo. I got all the clothes I will need, and then some. Yesterday, I went to brandon's sprinkler family party thing. I guess none of his other girlfriends would go with him, or something like that. It wasn't bad at all. His aunt lives in France, and she is just the cutest thing ever. Her little boys, one has a french accent. Aw. I love it!! I had a lot of fun though. :] School is comming up so soon. I can't wait to get it over with. I need to get my schedule changed though. That would be bitchen' if I got the classes I wanted!! Well, I vote that people comment, because, well, no one does anymore!!!!
Bye bye.
<3

<3

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 04:17:09 GMT

let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow.

it felt great to be a liar.

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 21:40:16 GMT

let's just say life is a little crazy right now.

i don't know where to begin...
i guess i'll start at how i'm going to be a senior this year!!
what what!!!
it's crazy to me how school has just FLOWN by.
seriouly.
hmm... the boyfriend is amazing, like he should be.
he has been really good to me and the whole being together?
it's great.
i love him.
summer has been fun.
i have actually made friends, lol.
i miss randi a lot.
jessie too.
i think we should hang out, cuz, i miss them both. <3
well, thats about it for an update.
i love teh bran bran!!!

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 14:50:56 GMT

why stop now?

don't you feed me lies about some idealistic future

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 04:38:13 GMT

I'm getting too old for this shit.

You don't fucking listen when I'm around.

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 18:05:24 GMT

I got my passport yesterday...

let's just keep singing.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 19:53:19 GMT

Love's an excuse to get hurt
and to hurt.